- wow, I spend a lot of time apologizing. It's been a long time since my last post. Far too long I'm sure. I'd like to take a moment to thank Sara, the boys, and my niece, Brandi. You all stayed with me, & here I am back at the keyboard. I'd thought to say sorry to some people I'd butchered in previous posts, but then I thought, nope. What's done is done, the written word, published, is simply irrevocable, now isn't it! The last year has been, heaven & hell, everything & nothing all at once. It's been a year plus of upgrading, a math course I didn't even need, english shelved that I'll undoubtedly need, and an endless source of stress and growth for everyone, especially Sara. I sometimes wonder why she stays on, then after last year, I know full well. Isn't it a blessing to call your best friend wife (or spouse)? Those who share this gift will understand, those who've yet to find yours, I pray will. With her I am human, falliable, it's safe to be broken. We have learned to share in each other's fragile nature. I only wish I was as prone to acceptance as she, it seems lately she can recognize those moments far quicker than I. I'm more apt to remind her of her mistakes, then I am willling to celebrate her victories.
The fall finds me attending King's University College at The University of Western Ontario. As I write this, I'm looking forward to my last week of upgrading, I'll have about two weeks off and start at King's on the 10'th. Maybe it's appropriate that I pick up now. I've not stopped writing, I've tried to make note of each day of upgrading, I've written pieces this year that I've submitted for publishing, as of this post, nothing's been accepted, and that's cool. If you, & my family are the only eyes that ever see these pieces, I'm totally cool. I feel as if this last year I've become, more aware of my shortcomings, my need to be accountable to the opportunity that's in front of me, and my ability to play victim. It's a talent I've used for years, and I pray for the ability to shrug it off. I've also become comfortable with the people I've left behind. How can I possibly spend a lifetime grieving relationships that have never existed, the only reality, is that those people have convinced themselves that they care, when they NEVER have. I know today, that my hand remains extended, until these decide to reach out, I am powerless, and I'm not losing a lot of sleep over it. Those that matter, know who they are, that's what's important!
I'd like to get some of those writings from this last year up here, I'm not sure how to approach it. There are two specific Essays, and some Journaling from my time at Grade Expectations. Stay tuned, and pray for me, I'm feeling excited about being back at it, hope your all doing well, remember, you are loved, Always!
- I want to quote a young lady I've never met, probably the most powerful statement I've heard in some time ...
- "Don't make something a priority when you're just an option".
(Sarah Mousseau)
- Wise words, to be sure !
S.
